I have only to wait

As the sun descends in crimson
I feel the darkness
that I have carried all day
in the form of shadows

I feel the darkness flow out of me and all things
and I pray for fires
and lamps
lasers and street-lights

I light a candle
stare at it
and focus on the light in front of me
not the darkness crawling all over my back

Tomorrow the sun will come
and unstoppable

I have only to wait

We were Quimeras

We were poets
Yes, we were engineers and technicians
but we were poets

We molded our poetry to romance
Calibrated our hypothesis with mythology
and deep ocean-emotion energy vectors
We tried to save the astronauts
the aliens and the killer clones

We tried to free the monstrous creations
grown in secret, silent, dark dank labs

We were quimeras
unholy hybrids of science and art
and we were the better for it

On the Question of Spirit Animals

do you realize that most people don’t even get the glances that you have?
your spirit animal is something that you can not control – just like your heart
oh sure
you leave bread crumbs out for her – only to find out she eats meat
you offer to give her a bath and she is so not into that
this is not some domesticated, sweet, beautiful bird

you spirit animal is all that you are
but the part you can control
and the part you can’t control

she is creativity in its most destructive form
she is the painful beauty of the sun
and she will not answer like a dog

and that is what makes her worthwhile
that is what makes her a thing of rare beauty

you’re either going to have to live with your current rate of progress
work hard
trust your mentor

or you can run her off

because you can

i would chose to feel honored that she has even come to sniff your hand
she must love you very much
because she is feral and wild and just possibly the most beautiful thing ever

poetry is always a lie ~ but this is a very good lie

under a moon the size of the sky
he said

never trust to poets
for poetic justice is neither just nor poetic
poets lie with liquid lips
their farewells are never fair
and their good-byes are seldom good

overlooking a sea the size of love
he raised his hand
and lifted the oceans from their bed
revealing all the secret treasures hidden in the seas

he said
i have cried a million tears
and all my tears have not made one inch of difference in the seas
he lowered the waters and set them to moving again

he pulled stars into his hands and twisted them into a diamond chip sparkled flower
an ever-opening flower
convoluting and growing from the center

he said
the flower can not sing
it can only be beautiful to us in this place
i would not have it so

and he set the stars free like lightning bugs
on a warm West Virginia night

she said
teach me

he said
if you could turn the sky backward
rewriting those moments when you were hurt
do you think you would be the victor?

she said
because there can be no victory
only pain and death

he said
if you could bind you wounds and grow tens arm
becoming a goddess
do you think you would be happy?

she said
because happiness is not a thing that can be wrestled
or bound
or even properly talked about

he said
if you could change the weather?
if you could grow gold in the palm of your hand?
if you could forget all your suffering
would you?

she said nothing

he returned the sky to exactly the way the sky is
he returned the earth and sea to exactly what the earth and sea are
as he twisted something in his hands
he said
this is a poem
this is a lie

she said
it looks like an arrow

he said
and it is only beautiful in flight
make a bow

she said
i can’t

he said nothing

she said
this isn’t fair
you ask me to change the weather
to grow gold in the palm of my hand
forget all my suffering

how can i do these things?

he said
you have always had the power
but you have chosen to hide it from yourself
until you were ready to transition

she said
teach me to transition

he said
i can’t
you must figure this out for yourself

she said
you are a bad teacher

he said

she said
you promised. . .

he said
i never promised anything

she said
why won’t you help me?

he said
i am helping you
if i were to be your armor
i would keep you from experiences you need
if i were to protect you from the rain
you’d become a desert
if i were to sing you sweet songs
you’d lose your place in the dance

he turned and the wind played with his clothing
the way a playful dog might
with a gesture he made a bow the shape of the night sky

he said
i can not give you love
nor children
nor courage
nor reasons for the way of things

she said
then what good are you?

he notched the poem that is an arrow
pulled it back on the bow let let it fly screaming into the belly of Nux

he let the bow slip form his hands
he laughed a snort then
held his hand out palm down
turned it over
in his hand is a piece of paper
this poem is written on it

he says
poetry is always a lie
but this is a very good lie

and quickly closed my hand again

The day passed
through the crack in the sky
and was gone

I opened my hand
but could not see it in the darkness
I felt what I knew was there
and quickly closed my hand again

Children of the Dark Wind, Rise

Depart for the far places
Spread your anodized wings
catch the currents unseen
Trek as vapor seeds
The ever widening ways
between the stars

Seek ye the lost ones
for it has been long
And so very deep
must be their longing
We can hear them
we can hear . . .

Find them as they sleep
Taste them
By their proteins
you shall know them