The Ghost-angel and the Dragon

There is a storm coming, but somehow its inside the house
The Ghost-angel ascends the stair case
as she has so many times before
In the silence of vapid Darkness, shadows race across the walls
She stops on the stair, suddenly somehow confused

The door at the top of the stair opens of its own volition
She resumes her ascension
She cries, trying to sob silently
So as not to give herself away

Inside the room at the top of the stair green fire dances in the place for fire
and violins are plying somewhere
The mote angels drift about the room, refusing to dance
They cast no shadows
But shadows still cavort across the walls
She says in a whisper
‘Is there any power that can make all these demons be gone?’

Something is wrestling with the grill work on the window
Something long and sinuous
Something strong. . .
The metal work gives way in a metallic shriek
followed by silence

A breeze explores the room
she stands silhouetted by the dancing flames
A dragon of silver and crimson hesitates at the door
The mote angels and walls shadows pull away
hiding in the corners

He finds her, wounded . . .
‘My Lady, are you Injured . . . ‘
She turns toward the fire without speaking
He kneels at the threshold
Not wishing to hurt her more
‘I have searched the Far Places, seeking . . . you.’
and he calls her name softly
Her name a beauty in this dark place
He holds out his fore-claw
An offer. . .

Her blackened wing stubs, thrashing . . .
Only dragon fire can sear the wings of an angel
She sobs and casts him back into the night

He wants to tell her that he is not the dragon that hurt her
But maybe she’s right . . .
Maybe all dragons are bad

He turns . . . to depart
She says, ‘Are you a monster?
What creature are you?’

He considers, ‘How can I answer true . . .
Can I . . . can this thing called I
Ever completely know itself?
Gentle one, I am no one, Nothing . . .
A molecule . . .
A moment . . .
A wave gathered from the energies of the Sea
Crashing even as it’s reforming.’

Pain and fear in her voice
she says, ‘What is your name?’

‘I have been called a many things
Elder . . .
The Archon of Light and Darkness
Life-Force Dragon
A Star-Fire Dancer who’s very touch rips the fabric of Space/Time
But these are merely titles
Words . . .
Black stains on paper
Vibrations in the air
That are whipped into the Abyss
Pointless exercises in vanity’

Silence

‘But if you wish it I will depart
I have no wish to trouble any creature
Not even those who have sought my blood
Not even those who sought my tears
I have no wish to trouble you or yours’

She sobs
Her frail body wracked with heaving regrets
It is more than the dragon can bear
Blood red fire tears gather
In the crinkles of his lid-less eyes

‘Gentle one
I would change this were it in my power
I would put my hand against the sky and turn the clouds back
I would commit the blasphemy of dancing the dance that bends Time/Space
I would walk the maelstrom that separates Past from Future
These violations and more would I do willingly . . .
Gentle one
I can not take your hurt away . . .’

St. Elmo’s Fire courses the cracks in his armor
The chinking between his scales
Energies fluxes across and around his towering form
His wings unfurl to the fullest extent of the ceiling and walls
Fire blood runs the veins of the membranes

Suddenly he folds into himself
His wings all but invisible
His eyes twin sapphire lasers
His eye cast down . . .

‘Oh
Gentle one
I have failed you . . .
You should have selected a guardian angel’

She is shaking her head no
She would touch him but is afraid
He places his mussel on the floor
All the other creatures have gone
There is only the Angel
the Dragon
and the green fire

She gently places her hand on his jaw and whispers
‘Stay here with me
And we will see what tomorrow brings’

music memories

All the myriad ways
music memories move through me
All the memories
I’d gladly trade for a tic-tak
The songs i wish i’d never heard

with you

‘Tis said
by those considered wise
that my memories make me the man i am

Memories in the amber of music
the soundtrack of my life
and i’d be a different man without them

But those considered to be wise
are maybe smart enough to know
i’d erase those tapes
delete those files
and be all the richer for their loss

I don’t know where you are
but the hardest part of listening to this memory music
is the knowing
that wherever you are
is a far better place

because i am not there

The Antimuse

In the orchard
On that dreary, dank and dark October Night
I met the Antimuse

Creativity dressed in its most destructive form
Dressed in thrift store finery
and scented of the fields after harvest

She hid her face behind the mask
of a younger woman
(the only hint
the emotional immobility of the eyes and lips)

Her willing servant girl
gave me another name
an inspirational sounding moniker
More an aspiration than a lie

In the orchard
On that dreary, dank and dark October Night
she released all manner of angels and demons
calling out that name to the night

Lilting voices
Acidic Voices
Bleak, warm and magnetic voices
Tiny voices of crystal
from the stars beyond the clouds

Warning me
Pleading with me
Defying me to make them sorry

She turned to me and asked
if I’d like them to stop

Never my Lady
They are the fluid of the Universe
And I really love the flow

The Dream of 2019 ~ Epic

Some nights I sleep
On those nights
the zephyrs of mist are busy elsewhere
and I sail a dream on a bay of tranquility
and awaken hungry but rested

This was not one of those nights

Having walked the day
under a cyan sky where everything seemed possible
Pausing often
Pausing by gurgling streams
Weeds
Wild blossoms in the stillness
Bird-cries in a small wind

I drifted into the arms of night
in a bed by a crackling campfire
after a fine dinner

I was in a darkness
and it just gripped me
released me
and gripped me again

I swam in some dark chamber of flesh
A gigantic dark heart

Crush
Release
Crush

My hands looked like primitive crabs
clawing and grasping
and I thought “This is very curious”

Crush
Release
Crush

I looked at my body and thought
“Whaa. . .
You know
I’m a strange thing”

Crush
Release
Crush

My consciousness. . .
fell away and I witnessed myself
having this experience
where my body slowed way down
and my mind expanded

I walked a vast flat place
a godforsaken desert floor or maybe some kind of wall
I wondered if flies see the world this way
Gravity is there
but it doesn’t really pull you down
I looked at my feet
and I couldn’t define the boundaries
the separation of my body and the wall

No longer defined where I end and the world began
The atoms of my feet seamlessly blended
with the atoms of the wall
Everything was. . . Energy

My scream was a sonorous
silence
in a high mountain valley
A quiet
A mute button pushed too hard

I have never wanted to own a silent mind
but my concern abated
washed away
faded in the brilliance of an energy multiverse
all around me

Like a drop of ink in a stream
I became galactic
Expansive
Impossible
yet real

And again
I thought “This is very curious”

My internal narrative no longer connected me to an external reality
I’m not even sure I had an internal narrative
I felt light
Made of light and energy
I mean I could remember
but somehow past/present/future tenses
just didn’t seem to be a priority
My eyes saw everything as really high resolution pixels
and all the edges fractal spiraled into some poorly defined distance

I did not understand words
numbers
linear time
the boundaries that kept me ‘in’

And I thought “This is a trap”
My expanding mind popped like a bubble
My expansive universe curled into a fetal origami ball
that fell apart in the rain
Rain that seemed to be come from no where

I felt like one of those oil on water special effects
you got back in the 60’s
with bands like Iron Butterfly

Somehow the plumbing of my body
began pipping input into the part of me that
knows dimension

Rivers of fire and light
coursed the newly dredged river bed of my shrinking soul
and sound
Yeah, , , sound

I’m had to squeeze the infinite me in that body
but. . .
I regained dimension and time

I gained something I must have forgotten
I am two cognitive minds
One linear – a river
One parallel – an infinite ring
I am a river passing through an infinite saturn’s ring
I am that singular intersection point of both
The speaking part of me flows from past to future
The magical part of me radiates out in all directions

I remember
I make the choice every moment of which I am
The finite, logical me that moves through time and space
The infinite magical me that touches the universe at all points

and though I feel somehow smaller
I also feel expanded

Dreams make their own kind of sense

Call to a Muse

Let the wind carry this to your ear
Let this moment pass
Let this be my offering
of ‘Verse

To what name shall I dedicate my verse?

Look . . .
This is your alter
Here beneath this rib

And while words are a thin livation
To be poured at these feet
Please come to see
That these squiggy lines and symbols
Are the all that I can offer
as humble offerings

If it is meat
What is your pleasure?
What verse would you wish to see?